"On the bad days, I tell myself that I am so blessed. I can do so many things normally," she said
“The most difficult thing, in terms of mental struggle I go through, is massive mood swings. I still have discomfort from the surgery, and I am told that this is the way it is going to be. It is not going to become better,” she said.
She then goes on to share the conflicting feelings she goes through. “There are also days when I think ‘It’s all going to get okay one day and that my breasts are going to be normal again.’ There is this butterfly effect that I feel that I am getting from the medicine like the tamoxifen gives me mood swings,” Chhavi said.
While Chhavi believes that the medication is giving her low mineral density, her doctor begs to differ. “He said it’s not because of the medication. But I think suddenly all of these things cannot go wrong. So, I am facing that. I have been diagnosed with osteopenia for which I took another injection, which gave me a plethora of side effects and so much pain. I realised that eventually, it was harming my liver. It’s harming my kidneys. I am somebody who would not even take a disprin for a headache.”
However, the 42-year-old said that the good days outweigh the bad ones. “On the bad days, I tell myself that I am so blessed. I can do so many things normally. I went to the gym today and I pushed 80 kg on a hip thrust. I am very blessed to do that, and I feel everybody has problems. There are people who are struggling with diabetes, hypertension, etc. There are so many conditions people have. People actually suffer losses of near and dear ones. They can’t deal with it. People lose their jobs. There are real struggles in the world, and I just want to count my blessings every day. Focus on what’s good and forget about what’s not,” she concluded.
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